Speak your mind

Nothing is better than opening all the windows especially in your room on a beautiful spring day (: feeling so cleansed

I miss the smell of a spring rain
The clouds slightly cover the sun
The sky still glows,
All life embraces natures natural gift
I believe that everything
Including human beings
Really can spring to life
And cleanse
In the largest downfall
Because when you shed
All the extra non essential layers
Do you truly show your true,
Clear form of being.

A word defied
By the transfer
Of word of mouth
From one to another

Some may listen
But never hear

Some may hear
Yet never listen

We were never to have such problems,
I hear stories in which that people are in friendship one sided

With us their is not one side
But yet the same time not two
And how you may ask this happens
When it’s not a third I speak of

Not one not two not three
But all at once
Because their is you
Their is me
And their is everything
And for some beautiful reason
We connect completely

The roots have started so stringy,
Fine
As they grew you notice more
Of the thickness
Bulky bark surrounding us
As we intertwine
We build more than just each other
We build above the norm
We built a forest

With our words
And the way we are

People are like coffee
Some with cream
Some with sugar
Some you find sweet,
Bitter
Others you tried, didn’t like
But we’re happy to meet
Because you can only enjoy
Your favorite coffee
After trying one sugar
Two
Or three
Or the different flavors
The dozens of cups
That you still are waiting to find

Sometimes I just need to type what I’m thinking. & seeing how my mind is exploding with all of this I decided that I’m just going to write it down, mostly because I have a horrible short term memory and I don’t realize all the wonderful things right in front of my eyes. Okay, I honestly love all of my friends. I remember being young and never really having a true “best friend” mainly because most of the people that I was “friends” with were completely horrible to me. I never could trust anyone. And the moment you told someone something, everyone knew. That’s just how it worked and I assumed that every human being was like that. I assumed that everyone was self centered and it only mattered what clothes you wore and who had a cell phone or the next best thing. That was all I cared about. Imagine living life like that. I questioned myself as a person a lot mainly because I knew that even though I acted as if those things truly mattered to me, they didn’t. I could care less. But I did what I had to do to “fit in” just so I wasn’t the odd one out. That’s just how it is when you grow up, you know? I guess some people never get out of that. After a while I came to realize that “friends” don’t do the things that happened to us to each other. You don’t fuck someone over that much when you truly care about them. Before it was making yourself better and putting other people last, realizing that its actually the complete opposite when you find true friends you never want to see them hurt, or go through any physical or emotional pain because it affects you as well. You have to help them through that pain. You have to be by their side lifting them up when they reach some of the lowest points in their lives. As sad as some of the times may be, and as hard it is to see them hurting as bad as they are, you know that they are growing as a person from this pain. Not to use the horrible cliché of “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” but meaning that you can only reach your ultimate highs of life when you know the feeling of being at the bottom of the deepest ocean. It makes you appreciate life more. It’s an amazing feeling to know that you can still stick by someone even though it can even affect you. Yet, you work on it together. You build up what has been torn down for what seems like hundreds of thousands of years.  Then again, some people’s lives aren’t all that bad and you find them upset over things that are miniscule to you, but you need to realize that everyone has a battle to face, as insignificant as it is to you. You come in counter with people who love the pain because it gives them something to talk about. It makes people care about them. They know that they can take advantage of you, and most of these people talk only of themselves. They never step back and realize that the person standing next to them is going through something 20 x worse than them yet they still complain. I see this every day. I can feel and see how the people’s faces change around them. How they think “I wish that the only thing in my life was dealing with that” or “how easy it would be to deal with that rather than what I have to deal with on a day to day basis”. I guess that’s a stepping stone I’ve already crossed, but I wish I could help others with it as well. I’ve met many people, and I can’t complain. Each person I meet tells a different story. Each person shows me something that I can use to improve myself. I feel like you learn the most vital information when you don’t even realize it. That’s the thing about life. It truly changes before your eyes. But anyways, I can honestly say I love my friends. Not because of what they have, but who they are. I try to find the beauty in every single person because everyone has some spark that you know will ignite some day. Every human being is a flower. Each was planted in different spots, and watered and cared for at various times. Several encountered some really horrific storms and some just sit blowing in a field next to others and sway back and forth. Some love the sun, and some wilt in it. Some have blue petals, some have purple petals. Yet all co exist. Nevertheless, when you come across an extraordinarily beautiful flower you can see it. Not even just in the way it looks, but just in the way that it is. That is what all my friends are to me. Exceptionally magnificent flowers, I am pleased to say that they will forevermore be in my life garden. We will all blow in the breeze and enjoy the rain when it comes. It is just how we are.

Just

(:

It’s been a good day

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